ANONYMOUS TEXT @ANONYMOUSSPIDER

[vivisexual]

I feel like being such a small group we're missing out on the potential of an anonymous message board, so I'm making it happen!!

What secrets or intrigue are people dying to get off their chest? Who's secretly dating? Who do you wish were secretly dating? Do you have a dark secret that's eating away at you? (°ロ°) ! You can vent here, consequence free!!! I want to know what everyone's getting up to behind closed doors.

It's fully anonymized, so you can be as honest as you want. Or not! I'm not opposed to starting baseless rumors. Have fun ♡ ～('▽^人)

[Feel free to follow my lead and have Google Docs' style anon ids if you like, just so characters who who's saying what.]

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[shadowban]

[ tsumiki in her hospital bed, long dead before even gojo satoru ever realised. a year of tending to a corpse. megumi doesn't have to imagine an answer. ]

you hope you have someone who can love you enough to make it worth living on.

[zauneyete]

Hope.

That's a falsehood if I ever heard one. No good comes from blind hope. Trust me, I'd know.

[ In the world before, he'd hoped. How much had he burned himself out? How quickly would he have given himself up, for just a shred of hope that Jinx would —

She's alive, and he'd been fed the farce that she was dead. He would have burned everything down for that, and what good did it do? It would have ruined everything. ]

[shadowban]

yet here i am.

i don't believe in luck, you know. but despite all odds i got lucky. i'd be dead otherwise.

i would've welcomed it too.

[ it'd be so lonely without you, yuji had confessed, and megumi couldn't bear the thought of passing on his grief more than he yearned the peace of death.]

[zauneyete]

Luck.

Is it luck? I've never found that luck comes through when it matters the most. It's yet another answer for the truth: that we are all the sum of our motivations.

[ silco pulling this kind of dramatics here ]

[shadowban]

if we follow your explanation then my only motivation is to seek a purposeful death, which is pathetic.

[ then again, he is. ]

luck is palatable for the people who get left behind.

[zauneyete]

[ Silco laughs wherever he is, probably in his office. ]

It is hardly a thing of luck, to be left like that, boy.

To be left behind? Is to be the unluckiest of all, unless one is able to take that, and use it to make better of themselves, of their place.

If you think seeking death is pathetic, then you are already following your motivations. Even the will to survive is something, isn't it?

[shadowban]

there isn't meaning to living for the sake of it. a meaningless life that impacts nothing, influences nothing, helps nothing — why keep going?

in that respect, death is the only service they can perform.

but thinking like that is insane.

[ is he telling this man or telling himself? ]

[zauneyete]

No, there isn't meaning in that. One must have a purpose, and keep your eye on it. Unending.

But living despite all that wishes to tear you out from it, that is what is meaningful. The barriers to your goals, they will not just try to stop you, but also try to take from you what you work so hard to achieve.

[ Or maybe they're both telling on themselves. ]

Living out of spite, existing out of spite, is reason enough, when the world wants you dead. Prove them wrong.

[shadowban]

[ this sounds so much like gojo satoru's way of teaching that megumi feels— not relieved, per se, but perhaps closer to settled than anything. prove them wrong, as though megumi's not been trying to do so since fushiguro toji walked out the front door without looking back or returning. how much more spite is there when he's lived for it since then? ]

spite is exhausting. i want to try to live for love, this time.

but you're right. to live despite everything is a powerful thing. thank you for saying it so plainly.

[zauneyete]

[ Silco 🤝 Gojo
Teaching the youth to be spiteful ]

Oh, one could hardly stop me. I've been known to speak my mind even if it is to my own detriment.

And of course, when living for something else doesn't work, there is always the spite to fall back on, hm?

[shadowban]

from experience, i'm guessing.

[ it's an educated guess, and an easy guess too if he were to bet on it. ]

spite is easy. if the hard ways fail, i should find my way back to them quick enough.

[zauneyete]

What, me? Oh no, I've always been about the spite alone.

[ He lies. ]

At least, in the end, you will always have the one cold comfort we all have, hm?

closing us out, woof

[shadowban]

that we do. for better or worse.

[ that one consolation of survival, of being so damn hard to kill. cold comforts, indeed. ]

let's have a lighter conversation next time, mister. you're too weird to be boring.