ANONYMOUS TEXT @ANONYMOUSSPIDER

[vivisexual]

I feel like being such a small group we're missing out on the potential of an anonymous message board, so I'm making it happen!!

What secrets or intrigue are people dying to get off their chest? Who's secretly dating? Who do you wish were secretly dating? Do you have a dark secret that's eating away at you? (°ロ°) ! You can vent here, consequence free!!! I want to know what everyone's getting up to behind closed doors.

It's fully anonymized, so you can be as honest as you want. Or not! I'm not opposed to starting baseless rumors. Have fun ♡ ～('▽^人)

[Feel free to follow my lead and have Google Docs' style anon ids if you like, just so characters who who's saying what.]

Comments

[queenofkur]

This is true.
I would probably say similar words were it to someone else...
But I am still working on being less harsh on myself.

Thank you, Yugamu.
You are a kind soul.

[vivisexual]

I try!

I'm still open to talking to you more and potentially becoming your acolyte, if you're still interested. Just let me know.

[queenofkur]

Oh
Right, you did talk of this...
May I ask why you want to be my acolyte though?
It's

Unusual.

[vivisexual]

Well, I'm extremely well acquainted with death. Working as an assassin, generally you either become haunted with the weight of the lives you've snuffed out, or you completely numb and detach yourself from it. As a sniper, I think my father is likely the latter.

But my mother is a martial artist. She feels the deaths on her hands very keenly. She taught us to respect the concept of death. So I try my utmost to respect and honor the dead. I'd try to ensure a death that person deserved. And I learned that in some cases... death is a mercy, that it's the greatest gift you can give someone.

That's why I'm only really interested in death as a romantic act.

I feel that you'd be more likely to understand that than Tezcatlipoca.

[queenofkur]

You're right.
Tezcatlipoca will sometimes kill like a common thug would.
I had never made the connection between those human weapons and irreverence...

[ She knows now why he likes guns so much, huh. Regardless, she ponders a bit on his message. It's true there is a lot of romanticism in death, it's rare for people to perceive that! Maybe she should dig in deeper with a question. ]

Death is what drives evolution.
Humans are afraid of it and defy it.
By fighting against it, they grow and thrive.

And yet death is also what gives life meaning,
For if it did not come, existence would be unbearable.
A neverending nightmare from which there is no waking up.


Can you reconcile those contradictions?


Death as an Evil of Humanity that must be fought,
Death as a Necessity that must be accepted.

Life as something that must be lived to its fullest,
Life as something that must imperatively end?

[vivisexual]

[Hm. Yeah, he's got the right death god for him ]

Yes!! I couldn't have put it better myself. You can't fully embrace life if you shy away and refuse to consider death.

The fact that as sentient beings, we humans know that one day we will die, you're exactly right, that's what pushes us to create, to think, to work towards a goal. We're aware our time is finite and we have an instinctive urge to make it mean something.

And at the same time, when times are hard, we know that one day, we'll be allowed to rest. It may seem contradictory, but humans are inherently contradictory things, I think. For example, we need love and connection, but often are afraid to chase after it or even run away from it.

[queenofkur]

You have a better perception of death than most.
I suppose I have another and last question for you...

Why?
I know I already asked it,
And I understand I am a better fit than Tezcatlipoca for your definition of death.

But why would you want to be acolyte to a Death God to begin with?
Is there something you hope to gain?
Or something you seek to achieve?

[vivisexual]

I don't really have one big and dramatic meaningful reason, unfortunately. Just a handful of small ones.

I like to keep busy, and this seems like an exercise in devotion which I always find appealing.

The idea of gods being real is a novelty to me, and I suppose I'm curious about all of that.

And I swore off being an assassin to be a doctor. I feel like I've done a lot to cut many lives unjustly short. I want to make sure people pass into the next life only when they're supposed to, and when they do, to make sure I've done all I can to make it a peaceful one. I feel like your blessings could help me achieve that. Regardless of whatever fate I earn when I finally die.

I don't really have any larger aspirations than that.

[queenofkur]

... I see.

[ She sees no reason to object then, but...

... ... ... ... ... ... ... ]

However, you must understand.
I am not Tezcatlipoca.
I do not take acolytes or servants.
My entire existence, I have worked alone.
Most Gallû Spirits under my orders are lacking in intelligence and can only follow orders or their instincts.
And the thought of Dumuzid being an acolyte is much too weird for me to consider.

I suppose you could be an...



Employee?
Priest?
No, that's even weirder...

[vivisexual]

Your PR Manager?

[queenofkur]

Huh
Gilgamesh spoke a similar term...
It stands for public relations, right?

[vivisexual]

That's right! Basically I'd be something like your spokesperson, and it'd be my job to help people better understand what you stand for and improve your image.

[queenofkur]

I
I suppose I could use someone who does things like that...
Social skills aren't my "strong suit"
(is that the right expression?)

But "PR Manager" doesn't sound really good either...

Perhaps you could be a P.R.I.E.S.T.
Public Relation Intermediary for Ereshkigal's Social Thriving

[vivisexual]

[This is so funny. He loves it.]

Do I have to type it out with the periods every time?

Other than that I'm all for it! People may not like me but I know how to socialize and read people!

[queenofkur]

No, I don't think you do.

And wait,
People don't like you?
But why??

[vivisexual]

Well let me be clear, I mean in general! Here the people on our team seem to be more accepting, though I'm sure plenty of them still find me off-putting.

Generally people don't take my penchant for discussing violence and kinks as freely as I do. Some people disliked me simply for how I dress! But I'd rather be disliked for who I am than liked for being someone I'm not.

[queenofkur]

Violence and...
And...

[ Wait, no she can't have read that right. let her check a dictionary...

... ... ... ... ... ]

You
You mean muscular stiffness and soreness, right?

[vivisexual]

I don't, though given my plans for becoming a doctor, I suppose I'll be discussing those kind of kinks now as well!

[queenofkur]

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This goddess switched to recovery mode. ]