ANONYMOUS TEXT @ANONYMOUSSPIDER

[vivisexual]

I feel like being such a small group we're missing out on the potential of an anonymous message board, so I'm making it happen!!

What secrets or intrigue are people dying to get off their chest? Who's secretly dating? Who do you wish were secretly dating? Do you have a dark secret that's eating away at you? (°ロ°) ! You can vent here, consequence free!!! I want to know what everyone's getting up to behind closed doors.

It's fully anonymized, so you can be as honest as you want. Or not! I'm not opposed to starting baseless rumors. Have fun ♡ ～('▽^人)

[Feel free to follow my lead and have Google Docs' style anon ids if you like, just so characters who who's saying what.]

Comments

[gorb]

Don't.

If he's a failure of a father that's his own business, it has nothing to do with you.

yuji... toji... i only know lobotomy kaisen apparently

[shadowban]

he's still my father, isn't he? i'm not actually adopted into the gojo clan. i'm a zen'in through fushiguro toji, that's why my stewardship as a minor returned to the clan when sensei was sealed.

he has his reasons, even if i don't agree with them.

ur so ok i just assumed i didn't know what was going on

[gorb]

Does he feel like a father?

u know, fair

[shadowban]

i don't know what that feels like, if i'm honest.

[gorb]

If you don't then maybe you're giving him more credit than he deserves. At the end of the day you could decide that DNA is all you share and walk away. No one would blame you.

[shadowban]

but i would know. and he would know.

it's only been me and tsumiki for the longest time. i don't know if i want a relationship with a father figure just so i can say i've had one, or if

i don't know.

all of this is confusing.

[gorb]

I killed mine.

( Just dropping that out there without a care in the world. )

So possibly I am not the right person for this talk. My father was kind, he was quiet, he believed in honour and respect. He was a good parent. And I killed him, because he was a non-shaman. ( One of these days he might look at that head-on, one of these days he might even grieve. ) Your father is a bad man, but then again, so am I. So maybe it depends on if you want to scorch the earth or grow something from it.

private onwards;

[shadowban]

he tried to kill me. i guess we're all either trying to overcome the men who came before us, or they try to bury us under their weight.

[ toji's impaled head flashes before megumi's eyes just for a second. the image lances through him, pins his tongue to the roof of his mouth; else he knows the water in him will come up. dead, so many dead. everyone keeps dying. ]

you wouldn't sell your daughters. you chose them and you love them, you made it known. he gave me away and somehow i'm still trying to make sense of it.

but i have to try, don't i? all that's left is to keep trying. inertia and momentum can never exist together.

[gorb]

I did chose them.

Which is why I want to impress upon you that you don't have to care about him if you don't want to. I know why you're struggling. I was raised filial. I cared about honour. But it did me no good in the end. So I forged my own family. One was not more important than the other. What matters is only what you want to apply to it.

[shadowban]

i want to care.

[ he wants to keep trying. he's been giving up all his life without realising it, has been drinking from his self-appointed grief like a ten-year widow; what kind of child was he that he saw time stretching on and saw only the despair of time marching on?

there's a price tag strung around his neck, as much as everyone had tried to dress it up in gold and ice-blue power. it's hard to mask such a thing from a child's wondering eyes. ]

but i don't want to be the only one putting in the work. i deserve better, right? i deserve someone who will meet me halfway.

[gorb]

You do.

I don't know what to tell you other than you have to do what will bring you comfort most in the end. Try with your father, if that's what you want. If he doesn't reciprocate then you'll have your answer.

[shadowban]

[ if he doesn't reciprocate then you'll have your answer.

and that's the gospel truth, as they sing in the cartoons. ]

i'll try. and i'll tell him i'm only trying as long as he is.

thank you for talking me through this, geto-san. i don't really know anyone who i can talk to about this.

[gorb]

There are probably better people you could come to, Megumi. But if it helps my door is always open.

[shadowban]

[ the only one ever better is yuji, and yuji needs someone to think of his boundaries, too. ]

i'm honored to have your welcome, geto-san. i really mean it. thank you.