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[vivisexual]

I feel like being such a small group we're missing out on the potential of an anonymous message board, so I'm making it happen!!

What secrets or intrigue are people dying to get off their chest? Who's secretly dating? Who do you wish were secretly dating? Do you have a dark secret that's eating away at you? (°ロ°) ! You can vent here, consequence free!!! I want to know what everyone's getting up to behind closed doors.

It's fully anonymized, so you can be as honest as you want. Or not! I'm not opposed to starting baseless rumors. Have fun ♡ ～('▽^人)

[Feel free to follow my lead and have Google Docs' style anon ids if you like, just so characters who who's saying what.]

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[shadowban]

remember who raised me.

why are you sleeping with him?

[gimu]

not toji, i know that much.

it’s complicated. do you want me to unspool that for you?

[shadowban]

i've got time, sure. why him?

[gimu]

last year. before he left and came back without memory. i had shallow admiration for his strength, and followed that into a shallow physical relationship, but he was in love with someone else. that was fine. i loved her too, in a way. she was happy, and made him happy. that was fine.

[ now it comes just so faintly disjointed. the little blinking icon starts and stops and cuts out often. ]

last october. details in the archives. castle bran. he came for us all. yuji was there but so was toji at the forefront. he tore down the place that wounded us. that castle does not stand anymore. i will never forget that.
felt something afterward
more
then he left
now it’s different
but i cannot let him be

[shadowban]

[ ah. like megumi felt with yuji when he begged gojo-sensei not to kill him. how he didn't understand it then, but as time went on—

this feels like it deserves more respect than a shitpost thread. ]

you've gotten some affection for him. for fushiguro toji.

i know he's capable of love. he must have loved my mother. how did you manage to get him to pay attention?

[gimu]

i do. more than i know what to do with.

i challenged him, and i remain honest. i can survive him, most of all.

[shadowban]

[ ah. not to make this about him, but he has a son's selfishness. ]

of course. that makes sense, from what i know of him and you.

may you both take care of each other well, choso-san.

[gimu]

does it bother you?
yuji hates knowing.
what of you?

[shadowban]

i don't like thinking about it either. he left me. now he stays with you.

even if i don't know him well or care about him the way sons are supposed to, i hate what he did and how it exposed my sister and i to a life we weren't ready for.

you're both free to do what you like. i'm not going to interfere. but if you want to know what i think, then it's that.

i'm tired of people leaving me behind, too.

[gimu]

he doesn’t stay with me.
i simply have feelings for a man who sees me as a convenience at most.

but all that aside
or rather, even with it
i won’t leave you behind.
for whatever it’s worth.

[shadowban]

but he seeks you out? he can give away his son and not come to him, but he goes to you?

it's fine, choso-san. i don't place any responsibility or blame on you. as long as yuji still believes in me, i have more than enough.

[gimu]

no. i go to him, and he accepts.

whether anything is placed on me, the fact still remains that you were left behind. it is not in my nature to leave someone be.

so long as i am alive, i will always be here for you and yuji.

fathers aren’t something worth taking up your heart with.

[shadowban]

[ hah. hah. how many fathers has he lost, at this point? ]

i know. they're not all that.

what's important is that we're good brothers to our siblings. and if things come to a head here too, i think i'll be able to face tsumiki with my head held high.

i'm glad you and yuji have each other to depend on.

[gimu]

[ what was it like to be loved by one, however briefly? only megumi might know now. ]

as am i.

i never had a chance to say it then, and it has taken me time now, but...

i'm sorry about tsumiki. i hope eso and kechizu can keep her company until you're ready.

[shadowban]

[ a father's love is two empty graves, with nothing left to burn to ashes. but a sister's?

megumi's chat bubble blinks in and out for a few long seconds. ]

she was the only reason i had to keep fighting for a long time. i miss her so much it chokes me.

[gimu]

[ a familiar ache, one that has never gone away, never lessened since the moment it came into being. of all things human, choso understands grief the most. ]

no one should have to feel that kind of loss. i’m sorry you have.

she was lucky to know you.

[shadowban]

i got her killed. how lucky is that, in the end?

[ he could've released her from their shared life, pushed her to live without him when he had the opportunity. gojo-sensei would've made it possible if he'd asked; why didn't he?

selfishness. it's bitter on the tongue, like the ashes of the dead. ]

i got yuji killed too. no one's lucky to know me. i'm the worst of blessings to have.

[gimu]

i understand

[ a silly start, a silly conversation, and he’s forgotten already the path that’s lead here because everything megumi says rings so familiar it’s a physical ache. ]

i cannot tell you that all is well
but what i can say with certainty is that with or without your involvement, my father would have laid his curse on her regardless
it is no consolation
but she did not die by your hand

[shadowban]

our fathers suck, huh.

[ if they can't laugh about this, if they can't make light of the horrific things they share between them — megumi's certain he'd be a bigger mess than he already is. ]

do you remember him? the way he was when he had you?

[ did he reject you too? ]