02 | @hearse

[wheft]

[ well, that's quite the mental update. while ishmael isn't reeling from the download's sappy effects, she is in the mood to yap and gossip -- which is typically unlike her at all. and so, while they're all still waiting for the download to finish, she's got this to ask on their shared network. ]

Looks like this is going to take a while. And I know that most of us here were haunted by certain dreams a while back, me included. It's something I've already gone through back home so I'm not too bothered with it now, but I'm going to go ahead and ask anyway.

What are some of your happier memories?

That's probably easier said than done, though. You don't even have to think too far back and just share whatever made you happy since coming here. It's corny, sure, but we could definitely need some cheering up after all that on top of this horribly hot weather.

Of course, if you're too shy to share them to everyone in the class, I get it. I know I am. You can just tell me privately if you trust me that much, or you don't have to say anything at all and just read or react to everyone's contributions instead. Also if anyone's gonna come here to say shit like "Oh I'm not gonna share anything :/" then do us all a favor and not waste our time. Thanks. 👍

[ ish is too embarrassed to share hers right now, if anyone's wondering 🧍‍♂️ of course, feel free to threadjack if needed. happy yapping!! ]

Comments

PRIVATE;

[assassinsgreed]

_{[ ??? ]}

why would you want to do that if we aren’t fucking?

PRIVATE;

[gimu]

[ ??? ]

i enjoy being around you?

PRIVATE;

[assassinsgreed]

_{[ ????????????? ]}

thats

_{[ not what he expected? confusing? not how this works? All these things he should have said, but this comes out instead: ]}

nice

PRIVATE;

[gimu]

still doesn’t answer my question

PRIVATE;

[assassinsgreed]

_{[ UGH.. ]}

yeah that’s fine
you can come over
i guess
not like i care what you do

_{[ He isn’t.. used to people enjoying being around him. ]}

no more kissing
no more hand holding

PRIVATE;

[gimu]

[ a relief rushes through him, strange and small and cold. ]

ok.

who is it? this person you are dating?

[ that goddamn word again. ]

PRIVATE;

[assassinsgreed]

yor briar

someone too good for me

_{[ damn… something he typically wouldn’t say aloud but he and Choso have some history so he feels comfortable enough to. ]}

PRIVATE; 1/2

[gimu]

oh, yor.

[ a puzzle piece clicks into place. Toji’s smile, the warmth in his eyes that night at the casino, that distant cast to his eyes that was pointed at choso but looked at someone else. Yor’s drunken babbles, the way she spoke that name. ]

PRIVATE; 2/3 nvm

[gimu]

if you fuck it up with her i will have to kill you.

PRIVATE;

[gimu]

but congratulations. she is a wonderful person. i am happy for you.

PRIVATE;

[assassinsgreed]

i fuck it up with her
i'd gladly let you kill me

but thanks

PRIVATE;

[gimu]

you truly love her, don't you?

PRIVATE;

[assassinsgreed]

_{[ stop.. embarrassing.. ]}

don’t sound disappointed

_{[ not answering.. because he knows it’s embarrassing to be like “yeah I do” when they just got together, but also, Toji is that person that falls fast when it’s the right person. ]}

our relationship is much different than what you and i were doing

PRIVATE; 1/2

[gimu]

i can't sound like anything in this format.

PRIVATE;

[gimu]

what we were doing was purely carnal and indulgent. i understand.

yor briar is deserving of much more than just your absurd body and you recognize this. you are giving all of yourself to her in a show of devotion. this is most admirable, toji. truly, congratulations.

PRIVATE;

[assassinsgreed]

that’s exactly right
and don’t you forget it

PRIVATE;

[assassinsgreed]

… thanks

PRIVATE;

[gimu]

you have to go to family events now like a good man

PRIVATE;

[assassinsgreed]

ill do whatever i feel like doing

hope you can find a new daddy
or something

PRIVATE;

[gimu]

yor is a family woman. you must now be a family man. get fucked.

i know what to look for now.

PRIVATE;

[assassinsgreed]

<sub>[ … this is actually going to haunt him for awhile. Like, he knew he was going to have to get it together, but hearing it so bluntly from someone else.. solidifies the matter that he’s going to have to make amends with Megumi.

Maybe then.. he can pick up where he left off.. where he was actually happy. He’s not going to comment on that however. ]</sub>

happy to help