02 | @hearse

[wheft]

[ well, that's quite the mental update. while ishmael isn't reeling from the download's sappy effects, she is in the mood to yap and gossip -- which is typically unlike her at all. and so, while they're all still waiting for the download to finish, she's got this to ask on their shared network. ]

Looks like this is going to take a while. And I know that most of us here were haunted by certain dreams a while back, me included. It's something I've already gone through back home so I'm not too bothered with it now, but I'm going to go ahead and ask anyway.

What are some of your happier memories?

That's probably easier said than done, though. You don't even have to think too far back and just share whatever made you happy since coming here. It's corny, sure, but we could definitely need some cheering up after all that on top of this horribly hot weather.

Of course, if you're too shy to share them to everyone in the class, I get it. I know I am. You can just tell me privately if you trust me that much, or you don't have to say anything at all and just read or react to everyone's contributions instead. Also if anyone's gonna come here to say shit like "Oh I'm not gonna share anything :/" then do us all a favor and not waste our time. Thanks. 👍

[ ish is too embarrassed to share hers right now, if anyone's wondering 🧍‍♂️ of course, feel free to threadjack if needed. happy yapping!! ]

Comments

[seaurchin]

[ if he had the kisses denji has had he might never kiss again ]

I haven't had it yet.

[nutkick]

[ A VERY VALID REACTION. ]

because you're picky?

[seaurchin]

No ...

It's not something that's come up. [ but he is picky, true ]

[nutkick]

after talking to some of the people here, it seems everyone's first smooch was a very casual affair. no feelings involved, too.

maybe it's not a big deal.

[seaurchin]

It's not something I'm looking for.

But sometimes I do wonder what the fuss is all about.

[nutkick]

[ hmm, okay. it's not something megumi cares about. so, he wouldn't push ... ]

when its right, it feels really good.

[seaurchin]

[ look he's curious but will he ever admit it ... no ]

Is that how you felt?

[nutkick]

in this city, yes.
back home, it was just bad kisses and a confusing one that was 'decent'. that's it.

[ thankfully, he's not from a canon point of THAT godawful back alley incident. poor dennis, more shitty sexual experiences are on the way for him. ]

it's usually not that hard. i just had terrible luck. so don't be spooked by it.

[seaurchin]

[ free dennis from chainsaw man ]

I'm glad you could find someone you wanted to do that with.

What makes it different from the others?

[nutkick]

the kiss?
hmm. this might sound weird, but ...

all the other kisses felt kinda like i'm being jumped? like, you know you wanted it, but it also kinda came outta nowhere, and then it got bad and weird? i guess I learned you should let the other person know you wanna do it. or, lean in slowly and see the mood? and not just surprise them.

does that make any sense?

[seaurchin]

It does. You might have thought you wanted it, but it didn't play out how you wanted or you weren't ready.

They shouldn't have sprung it on you suddenly.

Were you okay?

[nutkick]

[ umm.

well, he never really had anyone ask him that. this is— interesting. it takes him a while, he's thinking about it, and he's thinking too much into it because there's a lot he doesn't quite understand. this is not the right place to discuss it, though.

however, it certainly will be in his mind for the rest of the day. ]

i mean, i wanted to kiss them, just not like that.
i don't know. it's confusing. i just know it was really bad, but i got over it.

private

[seaurchin]

[ probably not a good idea to talk about this in front of everyone. he doesn't know if denji knows how to private a conversation so he'll go ahead and do it for him. ]

Even if you wanted it, that doesn't mean they can treat you however they want.

Did you really get over it?

[nutkick]

[ well, god— denji could feel himself get more and more uncomfortable. ]

i don't understand ...
is there any other way to get over something bad?

[seaurchin]

I don't know ...

Spending time with friends might help you feel better when you're feeling bad.

[nutkick]

yeah, it does help.
i like to keep those who are kind to me close, but-

it would be nice to still feel okay when you're on your own, right?

[seaurchin]

Yeah ...

Sorry. I wish I knew how to do that.