( Man, they really should remember the validity of locking something. )
It hurts. And I'm old enough to know that no matter how far you run you can't escape it. I get that I could try here. Logically I know I'm safe and it would be fine, but my heart doesn't hear that part. It just remembers all the times anyone who's close to me has died. For me or because of me. So it's hard.
I still get antsy about sticking around here, sometimes.
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see? again with the dumb excuses.
why are you sooooo scared of trying to be with someone?
[ couldn't they have this conversation in private? JHSDFSDF; ]
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( Man, they really should remember the validity of locking something. )
It hurts. And I'm old enough to know that no matter how far you run you can't escape it. I get that I could try here. Logically I know I'm safe and it would be fine, but my heart doesn't hear that part. It just remembers all the times anyone who's close to me has died. For me or because of me. So it's hard.
I still get antsy about sticking around here, sometimes.
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still ... ]
i know...
but you can't spend the rest of your life alone.
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( Haha, jk. )
Anyway it's fine. I have like so many friends.
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even if we deserve it, it's okay to be selfish sometimes.
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( Unfortunately this is dyed in the wool now. )
Maybe I'll keep myself open. But it really is fine. I'm happy. I have you guys to keep me company.