[text] @goddess of death

[queenofkur]

[ This message is sent to anyone Ereshkigal hasn't talked to since the event ended, even if she's never had any CR with them. Each message is personalized and individual but I - the player - cannot write individual messages for every character in the game. So please assume there are variations to the message your character got, thank you. ]

Greetings,

I have done terrible and inexcusable things over the course of those past few months. Though I was corrupted through the power of the rift, I take full responsibility for those things I did. The rift did not create anything: it only exploited what was already there within my heart. It is entirely my fault for having allowed emotions and feelings that could later be exploited to fester within my heart.

I have been allowed to stay and continue helping in the efforts to help this world, and I intend to do my utmost to prove myself an ally of humanity. I do not expect anyone to forgive me and I understand if you are afraid of me or would rather never see me again: I shall do my utmost to be invisible to you. However, I shall not relent from helping LILITH as my love for humanity is unwavering and has never changed.

Most importantly, please do not hold any grudge towards others who have been corrupted. If you find yourself having negative thoughts towards them, such thoughts are misplaced. They are kind souls who sought to help me, and suffered as a result of it. They are amongst the most beautiful souls I have ever encountered and they in no way deserve to be treated poorly. Note this statement only partially apply to Silco. Though you should bear no grudge towards him for what transpired last month, I do not consider him to be a kind and beautiful soul.

Furthermore, I would like to put an end to some strange rumors that reached my ears. It is said I took people in relationship to assist me when I was corrupted. Well, just about every of the people I consider close to my heart are in relationships. It would have been more surprising had one of the seven guardians been someone not in a relationship. The pattern some of you may have observed is as such, not a pattern at all.

Lastly, I would like to issue a warning about those rifts. Please avoid them at all costs. Though I dare not presume your heart bears the seeds that could lead to an apocalyptic outcome, it is evident the potential for evil exists within us all. Rifts should be avoided entirely until we understand them better.


I am sorry for everything.

-- Ereshkigal

Comments

[queenofkur]

[ Was she a failure even as a Beast...? Well, that doesn't matter indeed! ]

I'm just happy that things weren't as bad as they could have been for them.
They don't deserve what they went through.

[misclassed]

Mm. You did a number on them, for sure.

So what's the plan? Words are fine and all, but bad karma can only be offset by good. You said you were doing something.

[queenofkur]

I plan to be as useful as possible next mission.

I'm also going to give LILITH every information I can possibly think of about this accident.

... I wish I could do more, but honestly I'm at a loss. Punishment for such a sin should be death, but this would be a cowardly way out.

[misclassed]

And whats the point of killing a death god? All that does is send you home.

[ ... ]

You want a suggestion, or are you gonna bite my head off again if I say something?

[queenofkur]

Well I would lose my current self.
My memories, experiences and the fragment of divinity I entrusted this vessel with would be lost.
This would be a fitting punishment, I suppose.

I am open to suggestions,
Though I do not remember biting your head off.
This is not the sort of things I do.
It is most undignified.
Nor do I think you would still be alive had I done it.

[misclassed]

Dunno, I'm pretty damn durable. You're just hair trigger on reactions and sensitive to boot, so it's like walking on glass around you sometimes. And saying that "you'd be dead if I lost my temper" stuff really detracts from the rest of the sentiment.

[ not that he's particularly mad or irritated about it this time (or even worries about divine retribution, frankly) but. man. it's hard for a guy who doesn't even mince his words for people he likes to make headway. ]

But anyway, it's festival season, and Obon is soon too. Do something to help; good actions to repay for ill. If you need tasks to do, I can always find you work.

[queenofkur]

I do not understand what you are saying.
I didn't say I would kill you if I lost my temper?
I do not even like killing.

You spoke of me biting your head off.
And I still do not remember having ever done that. Nor do I plan to.
This sounds undignified and barbaric.

[ Yes, she thinks he means it in the most literal way. How do you even bite a head off? Probably by the hair or the throat. She would have said Ishtar may do it, but then she'd get accused of saying bad stuff about someone once again! ]

I am already helping in such matters.
I am assisting Yuji with creating decorations for a festival.
I do not consider this as a good action however, it is only natural I would help.

[misclassed]

[ ... huh? ]

... Ereshkigal, no.

It's a figure of speech. Biting someone's head off is — [ uh. can't say "chew someone out" can he. Uh. ] Speaking with excessive harshness in response to a smaller... issue? Like—verbal collateral damage. Not actually biting, with teeth.

... I meant, I didn't want you giving me shit for making a suggestion.

2/2

[misclassed]

Which is also a figure of speech.

For the record.

[queenofkur]

I
I see...

But then, aren't you the one who bit my head off?
I remember you being overly rude and tactless.

[misclassed]

Tch, I don't bite people's heads off. Talking straight is something different.

[ no, she has the right of it. he just forgets almost immediately and is way too good at letting go of stuff when he doesn't want to linger on it, so it doesn't count... right? (wrong. muramasa, be nicer.) ]

And tact is for the young people with time to kill. Old timers like me can't waste air on making nice.

[queenofkur]

This is untrue.
I never lie and I am not rude for as much.

Besides, I am your elder by tens if not hundreds of thousand years.
Compared to me, you are very young indeed.
By your own logic, tact should be your thing.

[misclassed]

Okay, fine, no lying and not being rude, but you do bite people's heads off, just like Rin. I know her well enough now to say that.

Yeah? So what? Hephasteus was an old bastard too and I didn't bother with him even when I had an apprenticeship, so I won't waste our time on it with you either.

[queenofkur]

When did I bite your head off?

[ She's not letting that go! Accuse her of having tried to destroy humanity, sure. Accuse her of having treated him poorly, and he better have the receipts! She knows his tactics, it's pretend the other is guilty of your own behavior! ]

You don't understand.
For all intent and purpose, compared to me,
You are a baby.
Using your age as an excuse won't work.

[misclassed]

In Egypt, when you stuck your nose in Rin's business and I told you to mind your own, you got on that little high horse of yours and started laying down mandates again, like you weren't the one butting in and being reminded not to.

[ ... And then he'd been the one to chew her head off. That had been the issue, hadn't it? Both of them thought the other was the one interrupting. Muramasa rising to the defense of Rin, and Ereshkigal defending herself. ]

... Ah.

[ He won't change himself, so why is he bothering to see what she'll do either? ]

Actually, you know what? Forget it.

If you're working on Itadori's project, tell me if you need supplies and I'll make sure someone gets them to you.

[ Ohh yeah, that's the answer. ]

[queenofkur]

[ And then he'd indeed chewed her head off. All she'd done was try to help! She knows how hard romance is for her, she didn't want for Rin to suffer half as much. She owes her a lot, that's the least she can do.

No matter. For once, she welcomes the change in topic. ]

I don't need supplies, I'm using my own magic for it.
But thank you.

[misclassed]

[ Work is a good, safe topic. No chance of stepping on toes or losing his temper (as much), when all he wants is to make sure things are done well. ]

Yeah? What is it?

I'm up to my eyeballs in paper flowers and little pandas, but if you're doing something specific...

[ Harmony and cohesion are an important part of any final product. ]

[queenofkur]

The metal I use to make my cage
Most people mistake it for gold, but it is my own creation.
I can manipulate it however I wish.
For this, I make it into paper-thin sheets.
Thus the decorations will be very durable and shiny.

[misclassed]

[ metal? 👀 ]

Is it permanent? Can anyone else work it? I'll buy some off ya.

[queenofkur]

Unfortunately, no.
I could teach you,
But only those who serve me in Kûr can know.

[misclassed]

Oh. Damn. If it's magecraft, I doubt I can pick up on it anyway. I'm kinda shoehorned into what I got, and I'm not looking to pick up another employer as it is.

But if you don't mind me asking, what exactly are you doin' with your cage gold? Itadori share his vision with you at all? All I know is he wants to do Tanabata, but it's different from how it was in my day. Sendai kid, and all.

[queenofkur]

I'm doing those decorations normally made with paper.
The material is too fragile for my taste.
With the gold though, it is sturdy and still light as a feather!