[text] @goddess of death

[queenofkur]

[ This message is sent to anyone Ereshkigal hasn't talked to since the event ended, even if she's never had any CR with them. Each message is personalized and individual but I - the player - cannot write individual messages for every character in the game. So please assume there are variations to the message your character got, thank you. ]

Greetings,

I have done terrible and inexcusable things over the course of those past few months. Though I was corrupted through the power of the rift, I take full responsibility for those things I did. The rift did not create anything: it only exploited what was already there within my heart. It is entirely my fault for having allowed emotions and feelings that could later be exploited to fester within my heart.

I have been allowed to stay and continue helping in the efforts to help this world, and I intend to do my utmost to prove myself an ally of humanity. I do not expect anyone to forgive me and I understand if you are afraid of me or would rather never see me again: I shall do my utmost to be invisible to you. However, I shall not relent from helping LILITH as my love for humanity is unwavering and has never changed.

Most importantly, please do not hold any grudge towards others who have been corrupted. If you find yourself having negative thoughts towards them, such thoughts are misplaced. They are kind souls who sought to help me, and suffered as a result of it. They are amongst the most beautiful souls I have ever encountered and they in no way deserve to be treated poorly. Note this statement only partially apply to Silco. Though you should bear no grudge towards him for what transpired last month, I do not consider him to be a kind and beautiful soul.

Furthermore, I would like to put an end to some strange rumors that reached my ears. It is said I took people in relationship to assist me when I was corrupted. Well, just about every of the people I consider close to my heart are in relationships. It would have been more surprising had one of the seven guardians been someone not in a relationship. The pattern some of you may have observed is as such, not a pattern at all.

Lastly, I would like to issue a warning about those rifts. Please avoid them at all costs. Though I dare not presume your heart bears the seeds that could lead to an apocalyptic outcome, it is evident the potential for evil exists within us all. Rifts should be avoided entirely until we understand them better.


I am sorry for everything.

-- Ereshkigal

Comments

[queenofkur]

Silco is a detestable human being. I did not wish to accidentally praise him.

I intend to apologize through my actions as well rather than only with words.

[gorb]

You could have simply not mentioned him at all. But ah, I know your type now. At least Silco is what he is, and does not pretend otherwise.

[queenofkur]

My type?

[ Okay, that's it. She's had it just keeping her head down and allowing others to make assumption about what she is. Especially from someone who thinks defending Silco is a fine use of his time. ]

Do you think I chose to fell into a rift?
Do you think I chose for the rift energies to change me?

[gorb]

Should I care?

Everyone can make excuses for the things they've done, that's a part of nature. But by coming here espousing your apologies but shining a light on someone else? Doesn't that sound like you're saying, 'oh, I didn't mean it, but at least I'm not as terrible as him?' Own up to your mistakes without being cowardly, Ereshkigal. Otherwise they won't hold weight.

[queenofkur]

I have owned up to my mistakes.
Not once have I tried making excuses.
The darkness and evil within my heart caused all this.
I shall not run from this fact.

But here you come, twisting my words to pretend I used Silco as a point of comparison?
Calling me cowardly for refusing to be silent on my refusal to include that murderer amongst the souls I cherish?

[gorb]

I just think it's interesting, that's all. You didn't even have to mention him at all. But should I be careful of your feelings, goddess? I don't want you to lose it again.

[queenofkur]

Ah.
I understand now.
Your intention was just to provoke me.

Thank you for the clarification.

[gorb]

If I wanted to provoke you you'd most certainly know about it. I don't hide behind other people :)

( He's still angry about getting caught up in her blast. Something she hasn't mentioned. )

Be careful, won't you? It's lonely out there.

[queenofkur]

Liar.
Your entire defense of Silco is only a mean to an end.
You hide not only behind him but also behind your words.
Yet, I must thank you.

You have given me the motivation and strength I needed,
To stand up for myself against unfair accusations.
For that, you have my gratitude.

[ She doesn't even remember it! And she's not going to comment on the "lonely" part. She knows what he's trying to do. Too bad she's never felt as loved as she has since the accident. ]

[gorb]

✓✓ read.

( He hopes Silco chops off something vital

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