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[fessus]

Who's the worst person you've met here and why? Pref an Outsider but if they've all been cool I'll open it up to whoever

I'm making a list



Bonus: if you guess a number between 1 and 100 and get closest to the one I'm thinking of I've got smth for you

Comments

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[gyve]

Maybe I just don't want to talk to you right now Noctis
Did you ever think about that

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[fessus]

[ So that's it then. Kaladin removes any lingering ambiguity as to where he stands and what he wants, and even though Noctis lacks any substantive answer that he desires so badly he gets what he needs.

An excuse to respect himself and his friend, and walk away. ]

Yk what? I didn't

Thanks for the heads up. Don't let me keep you, I've got enough bullshit to deal with

[gyve]

( Pressing his fingers against his eyes until they ache, Kaladin listens to Noctis' final messages. Patterns begin to form where he's made himself blind, errant light spots or some such phenomena. Faintly colourful fractals, dashes, dots, and noise. He only stops when a nauseous feeling begins to radiate from the front of his face—a headache forming from the callousness he shows himself in what he recognizes now as a low mood.

He didn't mean to say something so hurtful, but his control recently is poor. He's succumbing to his disappointment by seeking a quiet place to stand and refusing to withdraw himself from it. That's how the darkness catches up. That's how the selfishness of his disease wins.

So, instead of seeking help as he recommended Noctis do, Kaladin sits in an empty stall inside their shared restrooms. With floor-to-ceiling doors, it's easy to press his back against the door and stare at the rim of the toilet, rake his hair back from his face, and sigh out an uneven breath. Maybe if he keeps breathing like this, he won't panic. It'd be loud if he did, and though how he dismissed Noctis was cruel, it wasn't a lie. Talking to anyone sounds like the last thing he wants to do—even if it's the first thing he needs to do.

But how could Kaladin explain any of it?

Overwhelmed by possibilities and decisions, he bows his head and hangs on tightly to the back of his neck. )