[ It's so typical. People that cannot imagine doing this. Can't imagine letting themselves fall further and further into the monster.
Maybe some of it, the fact that he admits that he can't reminds Silco too much of other people who couldn't maintain the hate. Who had looked at the monster they became, and turned away, because it was too much. Too scary and terrifying. Bestial. Silco looks at Kaladin's cowardice, and it reminds him of hands on his throat, the feeling of water rushing around his ears, and struggling to survive. He sees him for what he is. Someone to lash out at those he considers "lesser" and then hate himself afterward for the crime of lashing out. Regret it, and try to do "better" as if better rights the wrongs perpetrated.
Silco? Projecting his traumas onto other people? Say it isn't so. ]
I know it is.
[ He says it with sharp bite, with the confidence of a man who knows who he is. ]
I don't need powers to do everything that I have accomplished. I don't have them. I am not the smartest, the fastest, or the strongest. [ Never that. ] But I know what it is to be without. I take it where I can find it, and I refuse to allow anything to stand in my way. You understand that, don't you?
To carry on is transgressive. To thrive is an insult.
I will transgress against what is expected of me. [ A half-laugh. ] No matter what, it is still victory, even if I fail in the end. I've survived longer than most where I am from, and I intend to survive even longer.
ironic that next month silco is going to torch this, typical
Maybe some of it, the fact that he admits that he can't reminds Silco too much of other people who couldn't maintain the hate. Who had looked at the monster they became, and turned away, because it was too much. Too scary and terrifying. Bestial. Silco looks at Kaladin's cowardice, and it reminds him of hands on his throat, the feeling of water rushing around his ears, and struggling to survive. He sees him for what he is. Someone to lash out at those he considers "lesser" and then hate himself afterward for the crime of lashing out. Regret it, and try to do "better" as if better rights the wrongs perpetrated.
Silco? Projecting his traumas onto other people? Say it isn't so. ]
I know it is.
[ He says it with sharp bite, with the confidence of a man who knows who he is. ]
I don't need powers to do everything that I have accomplished. I don't have them. I am not the smartest, the fastest, or the strongest. [ Never that. ] But I know what it is to be without. I take it where I can find it, and I refuse to allow anything to stand in my way. You understand that, don't you?
To carry on is transgressive. To thrive is an insult.
I will transgress against what is expected of me. [ A half-laugh. ] No matter what, it is still victory, even if I fail in the end. I've survived longer than most where I am from, and I intend to survive even longer.
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